Abundance. That is my key word of 2014.  shutterstock_144595526-abundance2

Like many solopreneurs, small studios and businesses, I’ve gone through difficult financial times, even hitting rock bottom a couple of times in the span of my freelance years. Have you ever wondered why this vicious cycle of feast or famine continues? Why we never learn our lesson? Until recently, I had no idea.

During my last dark period of hitting the deepest rock bottom ever, I was blessed to have the opportunity to work with a creative business coach, RaShelle Roberts. I cannot say enough good things about her and what she has done for me personally, and for my business. But that’s not what I am writing about here. You can call me and I will happily rave about RaShelle to you.

The first couple of months with RaShelle was internal work, digging deep by writing in a journal and reading recommended books. The word abundance kept showing up in my writings and readings. I was never taught how to handle money in abundance, but I definitely knew the lack of. I desperately wanted abundance in my life but never knew how to make it stick. It came, and then went as quickly as it came. I felt like I had no control over my life.

My cousin recommended one book that I read, The Emotion Behind Money. Talk about digging deep. I couldn’t go very far without breaking down. I had to read it a little at a time, there was so much to uncover about my past and why that affected my present.

Here’s what I learned: Your past is your present unless you change it. There are two factors that determine financial success: how you process your emotions and how you create harmony or balance in your life. Whatever is at the center of your world creates a powerful force behind every decision you make. We tend to let money dictate our lives and be at the center, whether you don’t have enough or you have more than enough. The author says to direct your attention away from money and focus on inner wealth instead.

What is inner wealth? It’s the part of you that contains your conscience, values, core beliefs, your spiritual DNA. It affects your work, family, personal and financial life–the trick is to balance these four areas of your life harmoniously. When you know who you are, what you want to be and put that into practical actions, you can live your dreams and the money will flow. Faith into action.

The events and dramas of your personal life can trickle into your financial life. This blew me away. I never put the two together. My thoughts ruled my emotions and my emotions ruled my behavior, which in turn created my past, which affected my present. Our parents are the biggest influence on our emotions as adults. The way mine handled money, argued over it, the consequences, the lack of embedded itself into my core. I may have recreated my family financial history.

Life is about choices, and the life you live is your choice. We do have a voice in our financial future. When you understand your very core, it gives you power. We need to set intentions to build wealth. Your energy flows where your energy goes. I never forget what RaShelle quoted to me several times, What your resist persists, what you focus on grows. So true! Money is an extension of our self value and love for ourselves. If we don’t value and love ourselves, it reflects out into the world.

Open yourself to abundance!

I have; and while I may not be making millions, I am thriving…I’m happier than I have been in a long time. I know who I really am, I know my vision for dezinegirl creative studio. I am putting my faith into action. And I have learned many lessons…for this I am forever grateful.